Be myself

During this period of time I feel that I become indifferent about the people and things surrounding me. Consider more about myself, I told myself. I looked down upon the beggars on the road; my sight was sharp, although some of them really had no ability to support themselves. I was not like this in the past. My friends told me that I was full of compassion.   
In the past I loved to play an online game which was called WOTLK. Now because of my job I did not play it and did not buy Wrath of the Lich King Power Leveling for a long time. When I left this game, I gave my WOTLK Power Leveling to my best friend. She left her mobile phone number to me and asked me to contact with her when I was free. I promised her, but I did not do. I can find a lot of reasons; such as I am busy doing my job every day. But only I knew that it was not a good reason. My friends in the WOTLK liked me very much, and they said that I was sincere and always liked to help others. So every time when I had trouble, they would help me. When I needed gold, they would give me.   
I really learn a lot after I go to the society. I learn to protect myself in this fierce world. I treat my superiors flatteringly, and I treat my colleagues with indifferent attitude. I hated them to ask me some question, although I knew how to deal with it. But I thought it was waste of time. I really changed a lot. This kind of change did not bring me any happiness.  
Until one day my friend phoned me, she asked me why I did not phone her for such a long time. She told me that she missed me very much. She promised to buy Wrath of the Lich King Leveling for me when she came to see me next month. She asked me to take care of myself. At that moment I was moved and my heart trembled, although I did not need WOTLK Leveling now. I looked at myself in the mirror, I detested myself so much. I think I have a long time not to smile, or at least smile extremely fake.   
This time I really want to get back myself in the past. Just in such way I can be happy and find my meaning to this world. I will not let you down, believe me.